I got a sweet email from a sweet friend today. It was a poem about being a Mom. It made me cry. I read it over and over again, and the more times I read it, the harder I cried. The funny thing is that it's not the first time that I've read this poem. But I guess it is the first time it has hit home so hard. Maybe it just fits the place I'm at in my life right now... the place where nothing much matters but my little boy and his health and happiness. I thought it would be a good poem to put on my blog on Mother's Day, but then I decided that I couldn't wait that long. So here it is...
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"Before I Was A Mom"
Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys or forgot the words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry about whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on, pooped on, chewed on, peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom,
I had never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots.
I had never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple little grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put him down.
I never felt my heart break in a million pieces because I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up every 10 minutes in the middle of the night just to make sure that all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction that comes with being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.