Rest in Him

My heart is heavy tonight. Gunner Gillespie went home to be with the Lord today. I know that he is so much better off and that he is not hurting anymore, but my heart is broken for his family. I cannot imagine losing my child. It's just something that my heart can't even fathom. There are some things in life that I guess we'll just never understand... I am a need to know kind of girl. But the truth is, I don't need to know. I just need Jesus. So for today, I rest in Him. And tomorrow, I rest in Him. And the next day. I think you get the idea.

One day, the Gillespie family's life was normal. The next day, it was turned upside down. I'm not beyond that. What happened to the Gillespies can happen to any family. It can happen to the Masons, and I find myself wondering, how would I respond? The Gillespie family has been the epitome of strength and courage for the past year. Would I be so strong? I know I can't protect Jaxon from all the evil in the world but I WILL be the best mother I can be and guide him in the right direction no matter how hard it may be. So, I'll take as many home videos as my camera allows, boo-koo's of pictures, blog my heart out about each and every precious moment and cherish these memories and the ones to come for the rest of my life.

And tonight, I just want to hold him. I want to hold him while I can, and pray that God gives me many more days to hold this little man who is my world...