Tuesday, January 5, 2010

New Years Thoughts.

New Years Day 2006 was one of the most exciting days in a young girls life. It was the day that I went, picked out, and bought my wedding dress... I remember looking at myself in the mirror when I had found THE dress and feeling like I had never before looked so beautiful in my entire life. I had found the perfect man for me, and now I had found the perfect dress. January 1, 2006 was a good day.

January 1, 2010... well, not so much. I woke up New Years Day feeling a little nauseous. By noon I felt horrible. Justin had to preach a wedding, so I had him take Jaxon over to his parents. I laid in bed, feeling like if I were to move the slightest muscle I would die. At about 3 o'clock, I started throwing up. It was officially. I had the stomach bug. After I finished vomiting my guts up, I got up out of the bathroom floor. As I was walking out of the bathroom to get back in the bed, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I looked hideous. Seriously. Sweat pouring off of my face. No make up. Hair thrown back in a messy pony tail. Oily hair at that. I definitely didn't look like that glowing bride that I did just four short years ago...

But that doesn't mean that I wasn't that same girl. I didn't feel like that same girl, but I was still her. The same thing is true in our Christian life, friends. Some days I feel saved. Some days I feel so close to God that I could reach out and touch him. Some days I feel like a good Christian. But some days I don't. Some days I feel as lost as a needle in a haystack. Some days I feel like there's no way that God could possibly love me. But He does.

I don't always feel saved. But I always am saved. And this year, my goal is to always act saved. Isn't that what's its all about anyway? Whether we are in that beautiful white dress, or sweaty and sickly, we're children of the King. It's time we start acting like it. No matter how we feel...

6 comments:

3rd Grade Teachers said...

Oh WOW!!! That just made me cry!!! Those are the Kendra blogs that I love....straight from your sweet little heart!!! Thanks for sharing!! I needed that tonight!!! Well said!!

Jamie said...

thanks kendra! i really needed to as well.

Jamie said...

that not to*

Anonymous said...

Amen :)

Anonymous said...

Thanks, Kendra, I really needed this today.

Unknown said...

Sometimes I think "Why am I living, if I am not living for God? It is one thing to KNOW that I am saved, but another to SHOW that I am saved."
Just thoughts... really great post Kendra! :)